Nikon D300, ISO 500, 85mm, f/5.6, 1/25 sec
Broken and torn, shattered
shards of dreams and promises litter the floor
inflicting new pain as we step through the memories
progress, hindered by repetition of the unknown and the unwanted.
Agony, punctuated by tears
what happened? why this? why him? please wake up!
this isn’t where we’re supposed to be
remorse for what has been lost, fear of what is to come.
The loved and the loving
stand helpless and unappeased
watching lives dissolving in torrents of wet grief
mouths incapable of finding words to match the depth of the heart.
Trust, believe and fight, fight, fight
there is a plan, a purpose not yet revealed
counsels echo through the hours in the struggle for hope
and he reaches out to touch the hem of a beautiful cherished robe.
– December 10, 2012
AN EXPLANATION
Last August, on the eve of my birthday, we learned that my partner of 20 years had a new battle with cancer to fight. Having already been through 5 surgeries over the course of 4 years, we thought we had passed through this valley once and for all when he was pronounced cancer-free following radiation treatments ending in October, 2011. A PET scan reiterated this finding in February, 2012.With the August pronouncement of a new tumor in a new location, we packed our house and moved across the country to be closer to family. Perhaps you have noticed that this had a significant impact on my ability to post on my blog until now. With computer and camera gear now accessible at last, I shall strive to update it more regularly, occasionally sharing moments of this journey into hell and perhaps finding a bit of catharsis in the process.
I Shutter at the Thought! 
Reblogged this on A View From The Middle (Class) and commented:
I know the story behind this one. I know this story very well. This is a story worthy of prayers … a lot of prayers. Prayers for hope, prayers for healing, prayers for strength, prayers for miracles. It’s all needed. My friends need them, as many as they can get.
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I couldn’t resist reblogging this Earl. So very poetic, so very touching, so very heart-wrenching. Hang in there.
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Thank you, John. For everything.
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Hearing and feeling this is realizing what you are going through. My heart goes out to you guys. If there is anything I can do to help, please let me know.
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John, you have been a tremendous source of strength for me these last few months. Your love, friendship and support is valued beyond what words can convey.
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Beautiful. 🙂
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Thanks so much.
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Earl, I am so sorry to hear this sad news. I hope the move to be closer to family has helped. You both are in my thoughts and prayers.
Mary Lou (@customphotopics)
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Thank you Mary Lou. Your thoughts and prayers are very much appreciated.
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